Assalamualaikum,
It’s been a while I didn’t update my journal. Busy with my KDJ project. And the sad thing is that my grandmother just passed away on the 25/3/2011. I still can’t believe that I’ve lost her forever. There’s no way I could call up her ‘nenek’ anymore. Nenek, may u rest in peace. I’m so regret for not being by her side during her last breath, but one thing I’m so grateful about is that I was able to take care of her before she left us. Almost every night, me and my family members stayed at Universiti Malaya Medical Centre (UMMC) to take care of her while she was in CCU ward. She was having a stroke like I mentioned in my previous post. I didn’t expect anything worse will happen to her until she was transferred to CCU ward a day after I wrote the post. She was in coma nearly for 3 weeks!
Almost everyday, I was with her and I knew exactly how she felt. Every time when I was with her in CCU ward, I will read surah Yasin for her, zikir and prayed for her, hoped she will get well like before. But Allah loves her more than us. A day before she left, I gave her a kiss and looked into her face before I left. I whispered to her, “Nenek, Effa balik dulu… Esok Effa datang lagi. Nanti Effa bacakan Yasin untuk nenek, kita berzikir sama-sama macam selalu.” By that time, I saw tears fall from both of her eyes. I whispered again and said, “Nenek, jangan nangis… Esok Effa datang lagi.” I wiped away her tears, and prayed for her. I’m still hoping that she is going to get well soon and didn’t have any clue that was our last meeting.
The next day I got the much unexpected news from mama. She left us peacefully. I looked at her face again but now her eyes were shut forever. Nenek, thanks for everything. I will always remember and cherish the time we shared together. I will always remember your calm face, your soft and smooth voice, and the thing that I’m going to miss a lot is, your rendang 3 in 1 (daging + paru + limpa) that you served every morning on Eid Fitri and Eid Adha. That will always remind me of you! I love you forever. Al-Fatihah…
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| pic taken on Eid Fitri 2007 gonna miss your smiley face Al-Fatihah |
